In freshman year I was sure my form of expression would be drawing. Now I have found that sculpture and play are where I work best, where I feel most comfortable, and seemingly where I can make my point count best.

Junior Review Drawings

Junior Review Photos

Bad Discipline

Junior Review Writing

My strongest attribute is my ability to conceptualize. This boundless flow of imagination is best shown in 3d media, because instead of being limited by the amount tedious detail that you just want to draw so it can be part of the final product, you can just have the detail, and stick it on. The method of “sticking it on” is another thing I’m pretty good at (adhesive expertise). In personal work, I prefer to work alone, but that may be the case with everybody. When a project is assigned, I don’t have very many problems in a group, unless there’s one person that does have a problem. If this person is overly stubborn, I will continue to challenge their idea just to listen to them talk their ridiculous talk about how they know what’s best. This eventually tires the fool out, and they can see rationally (it sounds mean, it sounds harsh, it sounds like behaviour that someone typically bad in groups would do, but it works). If I’m not particularly invested in the project, I won’t fight at all, and zone out carelessly.This of course makes me look bad, and convinces people that I’m not a good group worker.

Of course nobody’s perfect, and I have some very big areas that are lacking. My discipline is weak, my attention is weak and even some of my social skills need work. specifically, in terms of discipline, I have an enormous amount of trouble meeting deadlines, especially with papers. Even  though I am a pretty good risk taker, if the result of the risky endeavour is a negative one, I will never try it again. This seems logical, but even though I may be confident I could get a good result, I will still never try it again. I feel this bars my potential, because nothing happens if risks are not taken. I am making progress, though.
My skill level before I came to BAA was pretty basic. I had the same problem with ideas I have now (I had/have so many it hinders my ability to express them) except now it is less restricted. Its like all my ports are open. I’ve always been a thinker,and its almost like my attitude to everything has changed. I’m always in a creative process, thinking what this thing could be, what would happen if this, what happens when bla bla bla... you know. I’ve adopted this kind of thinking  (I think) for everything, but it kind of changes. It ends up being really negative sometimes, and other stuff, and its really hard to explain so I’ll leave this for something else.
Back to my creative process. In my room, it is a mess. I have a vast collection of long aforementioned “details”, and enough hot glue to melt into a cube about seven inches deep, tall and wide. I look at these objects, and all I can see is what they are not. I go from there. Most of the time I have a very rough final product in mind, but sometimes the shape of metal things, wooden things, fabrics, synthetics and all that is all I have in my head.
At first, I didn’t take risks, I just kind of sat around and drew dragons and knights.then i found out how cool and even more unnatural sci fi was, and added that to my library of inspiration. Now, since all my ports are open, I just stick to what looks cool or means something clever, and as you probably know that can be anything. So I’d say my biggest risk ever was the duration of early freshman year, when I had my epiphany of “actually everything can be cool”. I look at artists like Kieth Thompson and John Kenn for inspiration, both of these guys have a creepy taste, very story centered work, Thompson even includes two or three paragraphs of back story for his illustrations. Also, Tumblr has tons of cool that you can’t help getting inspired by. I look to artist like Michelangelo and random internet schematics for reference.

Discipline

Junior Exhibition

         I was a preparator for the Junior Exhibition, and I feel I did a pretty good job. Although all my work  was done on the day of, I worked with purpose, and I revisited my portion of the lighting a few times. In the exhibition as a whole, I guess you can say our luck went well, because not very much happened (even though we strayed from the path a little) and by the time we opened, all we had to worry about was the paint drying. The art in the exhibition is good, so there isn't much to worry about there. In the eye of improvement, I think the thing that needs most work is my own level of citizenship in all aspects. I Don't have much work in the show (I even had to struggle to get my mona lisa in) and in the preparation I only worked when I had to in the most absolute requirement, which was the day of the opening. (even though I was one room over while a number of students worked until five). In the exhibition itself, the atmosphere could improve. I understand that an exhibition is anexhibition of the art,but something is missing. it just looks like a bunch of art. (I mean its all organized fancy like, and has a fancy border 'n' fancy stuff but still).